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Here with India on our 5th date (9th calandar square) & 2nd time (for me ever I think!) here at this particular Library that was one of the settingsz in of our first official date

Anyhow might seam pointless to othersz though iv any of my psychLink or belief that xzystedd before and after\during with this girl hopefully it will be good to look at\read in the one future & iv this string of text is faultedd in those sayings?/z or measure of "you know ~ when itsz" a relationship bf≠gf bedwed etc ~ I only refute\debunk it on basis of the faith may never have "proof" (only glimpsedd memory & sometimes?/z most of the time not just me a schizophrenic fails/z to alwaysz remember) though iv faith as a choice was fully proven then it's?z no longer a choice of consciousness & the necessary close to synanyms?/z of a gamble. i do like her anyway & it's now been over ten years?/z a decade since my last closest relationship to a marriage with Sarah.

@ least going with the deducedd my interpretation of India "Olive"'$?z hand palmistry of a collision avoidedd\savedd\gracedd\mercyedd\dejectedd ~ my martyr prelude threads/z intentional illLeanment to b$ postal rounds/z and or of mhell'$/z inclusionedd malthoughtedd sewerslizm threads/z & before you state how it could maybe viewedd as thankfully not the ed murphy delirious unfunny joke re: a cracker , the time before kissing India there was almost only older girls?z between me and Sarah forced apart to no longer live together since August 18th 2015 after being together since met in April 2010 and waited till her birthday that year to actually be an official bfgf though there was one other younger then myself a girl I met when walking to the milkbar on leave from Dandenong Psychiatric Secured Extended Care Unit in December 2015 the first girl I kissed after Sarah(21) her name Kimberley Tirant(22) though I found out this year before my birthday I think maybe May this year that she died in late February this same year the same calandar squares/z I was feeling like shiF (& did this no daily Facebook post$?z " strike " unknowing it was her deceaseing, as I checktdd the Facebook activity log\history though I mention this as before being (as Kim usedd to code?state pp in vv) with India there was this post in Upper FernTree Gully that had the defence highwaysz numbersz (22)&(26) and it was thought in my thinking that not just how I wantedd my 25th≠26th to be my last as the last letter of the alphabet is Z(26) though tangent ing though iv psychLink tells?/z me a no b$ being "no one till I'm dead" well currently I don't have an issue with that iv this girl doing whatever she'sz doing on the library computer is saying less then a metre away decidesz to never cheat me like life sorta is showing me a bit past half the story like bit past half this moon. I just hope this full moon I get to be chilling with her (india) and yeah rambling not quite rant or venting though giving more typedd content for her to read maybe later on or once I post this nowish...

Tuesday September 2nd 2025 @ MBL ⚖️

619pm

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thankyou "Olive" miss meek